I would say I am stressed these days because it's physically manifested and I feel it, too. I am experiencing muscle aches, skin allergies, and blood spotting. I feel so tired, physically that I just want to sleep all day long. I wish to wake up late, yet I need to do otherwise because that has to be done. I want to do some other things worth the while, some other productive things, and simply just relaxing things. HHmmmm.. I would say that driving the whole day might do, like just enjoying the silent streets in the morning, appreciating the cool air on mid day, gazing at the stars at night without thinking of whatever tasks that are yet to be accomplished.
I simply just want to stop thinking about work and be free. Free thinking, That's what I wanna do. Free writing, such as this. Indeed, I am doing this now, but I am counting every seconds of writing here because I am suppose to finish one task that seems to never end. I just stole this time. This time that I am paid to work. Yet, this is not for anything, I guess, this will even help me become more productive. By writing this, I have expressed myself and at the same time listening from within and discarding the noises around. I so appreciate melancholic or desolate moods. I dont mean the sad and depressed moods. I mean just the moment of being uninhabited or emptied from the daily thoughts, concerns, and rushes. I would say, STILLNESS, that's it! Everyday I thirst for this and I would see myself crazy without this. Like few days ago, I literally cried because I had been rushing and pressed by some tasks. I wanted to take enough sleep but I can't and everytime I attend to the very task that I needed to finish, I lost for words. Tsk tsk tsk..
Well, it's up for now...
I'm a bit cooled again. Thanks blog!
Young and Now
Awhile ago, i was a bit nostalgic inside the office, cutting reservation forms and drafting some certificates. I thank God because i am no longer as i used to get too emotional thinking about what i'd been some 10 or 15 or 20 years ago. At times when the weather isn't too hot, i would remember myself playing jolin (marbles) with my siblings and childhood friends; i would remember the city central school play ground, where we used to play "football" as we popularly call it or sipa bola in bisaya; I would remember our manangs and manongs sharing some real and created stories; and, I would see myself drowning in melancholic mood.
Now, I have certainly accepted that the essence of life is growing up. Growing up in every facets of it. Like I am not always a kid, so I must cease to be a kid playing after class hours and all day during summer and weekends. I am no longer a teenager, so I must go away with unhealthy behaviors and attitudes. I am no longer in the past, so I must cease longing for what had been that will never be back. Things will never be back exactly as it had been. There may be resemblances definitely.
As a young woman, I appreciate everything I had been. I appreciate how the Lord honed the person in me. In my imperfection, I thank God at how He sat me off to become a responsible and discerning person. I appreciate my life after everything which God allowed to happen. I even appreciate the way I think, although I still need to develop a lot of thoughts, so much thoughts most especially for the ministry He is entrusting me.
As a young leader, I thank God for giving me opportunities in the past to lead other kids, to lead other students, and to facilitate communities and some statesmen.
As a young lady, I thank God for changing my boyish moves and for making me really accept the feminine me.
As a young lover, I thank God for giving me my compliment.
Now, I have certainly accepted that the essence of life is growing up. Growing up in every facets of it. Like I am not always a kid, so I must cease to be a kid playing after class hours and all day during summer and weekends. I am no longer a teenager, so I must go away with unhealthy behaviors and attitudes. I am no longer in the past, so I must cease longing for what had been that will never be back. Things will never be back exactly as it had been. There may be resemblances definitely.
As a young woman, I appreciate everything I had been. I appreciate how the Lord honed the person in me. In my imperfection, I thank God at how He sat me off to become a responsible and discerning person. I appreciate my life after everything which God allowed to happen. I even appreciate the way I think, although I still need to develop a lot of thoughts, so much thoughts most especially for the ministry He is entrusting me.
As a young leader, I thank God for giving me opportunities in the past to lead other kids, to lead other students, and to facilitate communities and some statesmen.
As a young lady, I thank God for changing my boyish moves and for making me really accept the feminine me.
As a young lover, I thank God for giving me my compliment.
2 hours and 15 Minutes More!
I am still in the office. Feeling empty of thoughts. Thoughts about tomorrow and the days looked ahead.
2 hours and 15 minutes more to go before Xavier Days (December 3-6). Xavier Days are the most celebrated days of the year of Xavier University - Ateneo de Cagayan. What is so special about this year is that it is the 75th year since its foundation. A diamond jubilee, indeed, and tomorrow will be the grandest of all nights ever, we hope.
As the secretariat head, i didn't know where to put myself because it seemed like the entire executive committee is itself the secretariat. Yeah, we have been preparing since September to avoid rushes and 11th hour stresses. It seemed to be the best preparation and the best committee i have ever joined. In fact, I couldn't imagine those lines my fellow once told me about the possible realities despite the preparations. I had so much trust to each committee member and I even acknowledged and paid the highest regard to each fellow.
Then, counting the days left, 14, 13, 12.....7, 6, 5, 4, 3 ,2 and, TODAY, the board states "1 day to XU@75 Festival Days."
And, TODAY, i just realized that so much are yet hanging. Well, I am not at any level of stress admittedly; perhaps because I was once like these 11th hour supermen. hahahaha.. I am not even bothered by the gaps I see today. I am just thankful that I see them and hope that in less than an hour now, I could think for gap fillers. In situations like this, I always tell myself to keep cool, be still, think right, act right, and speak right.
I know tomorrow I will be trialed, if i may look ahead based on what had been. I already expected unsound lines from the chairperson, like she always do to which we often commented. She is used to tick us off when she doesn't like what others are doing. And, we are used to receiving lines we don't deserve. Like, when she couldn't tell off the main person, she yells at us. Yes, exasperating it is.
well, I just pray that tomorrow, she'll be otherwise, or we'll become more patient and even more still.
2 hours and 15 minutes more to go before Xavier Days (December 3-6). Xavier Days are the most celebrated days of the year of Xavier University - Ateneo de Cagayan. What is so special about this year is that it is the 75th year since its foundation. A diamond jubilee, indeed, and tomorrow will be the grandest of all nights ever, we hope.
As the secretariat head, i didn't know where to put myself because it seemed like the entire executive committee is itself the secretariat. Yeah, we have been preparing since September to avoid rushes and 11th hour stresses. It seemed to be the best preparation and the best committee i have ever joined. In fact, I couldn't imagine those lines my fellow once told me about the possible realities despite the preparations. I had so much trust to each committee member and I even acknowledged and paid the highest regard to each fellow.
Then, counting the days left, 14, 13, 12.....7, 6, 5, 4, 3 ,2 and, TODAY, the board states "1 day to XU@75 Festival Days."
And, TODAY, i just realized that so much are yet hanging. Well, I am not at any level of stress admittedly; perhaps because I was once like these 11th hour supermen. hahahaha.. I am not even bothered by the gaps I see today. I am just thankful that I see them and hope that in less than an hour now, I could think for gap fillers. In situations like this, I always tell myself to keep cool, be still, think right, act right, and speak right.
I know tomorrow I will be trialed, if i may look ahead based on what had been. I already expected unsound lines from the chairperson, like she always do to which we often commented. She is used to tick us off when she doesn't like what others are doing. And, we are used to receiving lines we don't deserve. Like, when she couldn't tell off the main person, she yells at us. Yes, exasperating it is.
well, I just pray that tomorrow, she'll be otherwise, or we'll become more patient and even more still.
Treasury Bills
I have long been thinking of buying Philippine treasury bills. Few months ago, i passed by National Bookstore and dropped by reading some investment books. One book mentioned that investing in treasury bills is the safest and the least risky business. So, I did some research about it. I surfed the net and visited (online) some established banks in the Philippines.
Based on my research, Treasury Bills or T-Bills is one of the securities issued by the government through the Bureau of Treasury to an entity who would like to lend money to the government. T-Bills serve as evidence of indebtedness of the Philippine government to a certain entity or individual. This can be transacted through various Philippines banks such as Philippine National Bank, Land Bank of the Philippines, Bank of the Philippine Islands, among others. Most Banks require a minimum of P100,000 investment.
Interests rates are very minimal in exchange for the fact that it is the least risky among other investment opportunities; although dividends are released quarterly.
Nevertheless, your money is safe, it grows, and one good thing, maybe to those who consider loaning in the days ahead, T-Bills certificates, which are issued by banks, could serve as collateral as well.
Today, if only I have P500,000, I will invest at least P100,000 in T-Bills. What do you think?
Based on my research, Treasury Bills or T-Bills is one of the securities issued by the government through the Bureau of Treasury to an entity who would like to lend money to the government. T-Bills serve as evidence of indebtedness of the Philippine government to a certain entity or individual. This can be transacted through various Philippines banks such as Philippine National Bank, Land Bank of the Philippines, Bank of the Philippine Islands, among others. Most Banks require a minimum of P100,000 investment.
Interests rates are very minimal in exchange for the fact that it is the least risky among other investment opportunities; although dividends are released quarterly.
Nevertheless, your money is safe, it grows, and one good thing, maybe to those who consider loaning in the days ahead, T-Bills certificates, which are issued by banks, could serve as collateral as well.
Today, if only I have P500,000, I will invest at least P100,000 in T-Bills. What do you think?
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